hope

cockwaffles aside, i wanted to talk about hope. my life has basically sucked pretty hard since my grandpa died, but it seems like now things are starting to look up again.

my family, a lot of whom i haven't gotten along with in years due to various reasons, stopped treating my brother like he's invisible. while i'm still not treated that great by some of them, i am grateful that they remembered his existence.

my cousins are either completely grown, or just about there, and i've been watching their lives unfold. it's kind of weird really, since i have tangled memories of when they were little and i was playing with them or babysitting them or whatever. but the adults they're becoming are so full of possibility, i'm kind of excited to see where their lives take them.

hell, one of my cousins that i used to be super close with has actually been clean for a couple years now. she's in college, got a job, doing really well. i'm really proud of her too, since we're fairly close in age.

some of my friends are getting married, having babies, and i'm pretty happy for them. it's nice seeing the people i care for having good times.

my art is starting to flow again, which hasn't happened either at all, or just barely since grandpa died. i also have mui mel too, which has been nice.

so instead of my world being dark, the dawn is finally coming again. so i am full of hope.

to my stalker

IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I PUT IN MY BLOG THEN STOP FUCKING READING IT YOU ABSOLUTE FUCKING COCKWAFFLE
 

to reap what you sow

i'd be lying if i said the news didn't make me happy. i knew it was coming, known for a year because that's how it always goes. once she's drained you of your money, she moves on. sure, he wised up and dumped her while he still had funds left, but you're gonna be feeling that financial mistake for a long time.

i have no sympathy. when i start feeling for him and all that he's gone through, i remember what he said when he tried to weaponize my heritage against me. to turn a sacred name into a pejorative for the sole purposes of hurting me.

y'know, your entire country has a history of doing that, good to see that it isn't dead. /s


you have reaped what you sowed.


she's already moved on to the next guy, and once he's drained dry she'll be on to the next with her sad tales of woe to garner sympathy. i'm willing to bet she'll lie and say that he raped her too, because it'll get likes on facebook and sympathy from poor souls who just want to do a kindness.


you reaped what you sowed.


while you go on your journey of mental health and healing, i hope the words you said to me out of anger and hate haunt you until you die. you can't hide behind a shiny new diagnosis, you knew that it was wrong and yet you said it anyways because you're just as toxic as she is.

you reap what you sow.