our wedding

this isn't even close to all of the wedding and reception photos, but i figured this would be enough for my blog. thank you penny, for agreeing to marry me when i proposed. and thank you for making today such a magical day. not too many people can say they had a spring wedding right before christmas, eh? hahaha. i felt like a princess <3

teaser

once i get my hands on all the photos, i'll do a proper blog post about how december 23rd will be full of good memories for me.

i'm on tour!

what?! no way!

yes! i totally am!

i teamed up with the Trans Siberian Orchestra Tribute Band and we've been touring across second life! i've done a few shows now and holy fucking shit is it amazing. and intense. sooooooo intense. here's a video of the real life tour, which we are copying:

everything you see here we are doing in sl. lasers, fire, spotlights, moving stages, extra singers, you name it we're doing it. TSO in sl is celebrating it's tenth year this year, and i am so glad i get to be a part of it! seeing all the reactions from the crowd as we imitate life in the best way possible has been beyond mind-blowing.

with every show i'm just completely blown away, even though i'm working my butt off doing my part to bring such a legendary show to life. here's to several more tour dates, and i'm definitely doing this next time around!

december

this month has been... hard.

it's only now december eighth at 1:56 am, but it feels like it's way later in the month. the last few weeks have drained me, both physically and emotionally. after i received some devastating news about a family member, i waited on pins and needles with my aunts and uncles and cousins to find out more information.

the updates that did come in didn't paint too bright of a future, and then the family member themselves posted the results of the tests.

terminal.

i ended up traveling a few hundred miles to see them for a few days, and only returned earlier this week. it feels like a year has past in just three weeks' time. we're already planning a third trip (my mother and brother visited without me on the first one), but i'm wondering if there's enough time.

the prognosis was short.

as a precaution i said my goodbyes before i left to return home, and we've all been sharing stories and memories. it feels like my immediate family members and i are all holding our collective breaths.

hospice has already stepped in, prepping my family member to make them as comfortable as possible. we know the time is coming, we just don't know when.

if they make it to christmas, it'll be the last one they see on this earth.