i went radio silent for a long time. i had no desire to write, knowing that every sentence, every word was being scrutinized made me take my work elsewhere. public blog and all that, but the internet is quite a vast place and it's not hard to just make a new spot. for a time, that's what i did. but this blog is my home, where i spilled my hopes and dreams, my fears and anguish.
2019 was certainly epic on several means, and it's an interesting time of reflection.
i joined a few porn companies, then settled on being a solo artist since it meant i could work on my own time and didn't have to worry about deadlines. the friends i'd made in scorpion rebirth and true porn productions are still around, and every now and then i team up with a coworker for a few shoots.
i finally launched my company under my own name, not one that had been tainted with drama and fuckery. i have an established headquarters, and enjoy the feeling of accomplishment with my brand.
under said brand i partnered up with another company, and we are moving forward as a booming media empire in sl. we've performed all over the grid, sponsored events from sci-fi con to burning man to innsmouth, and 2020 looks to be even bigger and better. our empire already has ads in a few digital magazines, and with our partnership with a few other companies we look to take sl by storm.
since my brand falls under the umbrella, i have become a director of one of the branches and will be getting employees to work for me full time to help me manage. this also means i'll be helping to run major events in sl in various ways, with pick of the litter for DJing if i feel like it. it's kind of scary, but also exhilarating.
the power at my fingertips is extremely humbling, since i'm now staring down events with hundreds or maybe even thousands of avatars attending. it also means while i'm being trained, i'm gonna start seeing my face over a lot more places. i already had a full page ad of me run on facebook and in a couple magazines, and a billboard to boot!
every time i suddenly see an ad of myself, i can't help but think of the people who've helped me get there. of the friends who've stood by me, rooting for me when i hesitate and catch me when i fall. they're the ones who've gotten me out there, putting my reputation on the line as a stellar DJ who performs professionally without any bullshit or shift-cutting drama.
i've also settled into my routine at a roleplaying sim i've been a member of for just over a year now, assisting the staff who run it and plan events on occasion. spinning my sets here and there to help break the ice or just let people relax and party still makes my head spin, and i achieved accidentally crashing a sim!
then there's the blog for the sim that i post on, keeping the players up to date for a few months now. talk about hectic!
there's also been the promotions at the clubs i still work for, and i've also started training an assistant at one of the locations to be there when i can't and help others. it's kind of crazy how all of this has been growing, though sometimes i just feel like it's all a fever dream and when i wake up it'll still be 2016, with me a scared newbie who has no idea what she's doing and still caught in a toxic web of lies.
in yet more craziness, there's been my fanfic stories and even a sponsored story i've been working on. somehow i've managed to juggle several different hats without really dropping too many balls, and my work is updated when i get a chance to do so.
2020 looms brightly before me, and no matter how scared i am, when i jump i know there will be an entire crowd of people that love me who will be waiting to catch me and show me more of this brave new world. i have shed all the remnants of my past, and i'm no longer associated with unsavory things that could hurt me in the future.
i am also looking forward to my second collaring anniversary with my beloved pony, our third year with a locked harness, and of course our second year wedding anniversary.
