mui lúg

i wish i could post photos of you on this blog. but the stipulation was 'as long as people don't get in my face about it' and since there are known fugly ass harpies who stalk me from time to time, it's safer if i don't. i won't even use your name.

so i'll use one i've come up with to call you on here, since without translation nobody knows what it is, let alone the language. the odds are pretty good you'll never read this, but i wanted to type this out anyways. one of those therapeutic things.

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even with all the stresses from my life, online and off, just being around you is immensely calming. my worries melt away when i'm in your pixel arms, and things that seemed impossible before are doable now. 

you remind me to stop and breathe, you help me shake things off that normally affect me for days or even weeks in hours instead. your words center me in ways i'd forgotten were possible, and time stands still instead of rocketing faster.

i certainly had no idea when the lines blurred that i'd catch feelings, but i'm glad i did. spending so much time just healing from being hurt over and over i forgot what it can be like to just be happy. to light up when you see a screen name log in, to get a message greeting you in the morning.


no idea how this is going to play out, but i'm willing to just live in the moment with you.

mui lúg, mui aran, mui mel.